Photo Dump

Before I show you the promised pics, I offer a quick vignette.

Last night, we were sitting around the dinner table as an exhale, together at the end of a day that was haphazardly sewn together with
work and play
a toy store and renovation plans (you're welcome, Home Depot)
math and reading
laughter and screams
sing-song stories and policing ("MOM! He called me 'stupid' again!")
Lego and Angry Birds
snacks and sharing
enjoying the general cacophony of life and love shared. Annalyn was quietly singing 'Holy Holy Holy Lord,' her fingers covered in tomato sauce and planted firmly in her nose. Yup, this is my life. I'll tie it all up with a bow and give thanks.

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*gulp* Here we go.

hosting an extended family breakfast

Adriel and Annalyn: Beach Babes

chillin' with Uncle Stephan, probably learning bad words

brother & sister

When I got Silas dressed on the morning of the wedding, he grinned at me and said "Mom, everyone is going to look and me and say 'You look SO COOL!'" Then, after he beautifully performed his duties as 'Ring Bear,' he came and sat down next to me and announced loudly, 'Mom, I did a great job!' The kid speaks truth, without any false modesty.

Aidan and Heidi!

Rigel

Mom & Dad Ifland, Grandma & Grandpa Davies, the newlyweds

the sisters

the party

Forest

 Halfway down the aisle, she just dumped out her basket. The girl is efficient.

Yay!

Homebrew root beer at the reception. Seth's funny wedding moment was during the processional (the processional!), as he was sitting next to me, working on a word search themed on the solar system. "Jupiter, Saturn, Venus ... Hey MOM! Venus rhymes with P.....!!"

fathers of the newlyweds

play/school room (because in our home, learning=fun)

bedroom view

deck

girl

10 years of dating! My boyfriend took me out for Thai food and my first Seattle Symphony concert. I have such a crush on him.

Spinning Hamster

Oh boy. I haven't shown up here in a long time, and now the effort of writing something, writing anything, seems monumental. The truth is that I have had just so much of life and work and URGENT pressing in on me that I haven't been able to string complete sentences together in my own head, let alone carry a thought to its completion, let alone have intelligent conversation. Really, you should be thanking me for not even trying to blog in the past few weeks.

We have been exhausted, tired down to our bones. And I'm pretty weary of all of my thoughts and energy going towards The House and decisions about electrical systems and heating systems and all the necessary bones of a home. We may be significantly boosting Home Depot's sales. First world problems. I just want all of this to be done, and have a bit of paint on the walls (hey, I'd settle for simply having walls in parts of the house) so that I can get on to more important matters. There is a very small possibility that I'm not being very gracious right now. All of this spinning, like a hamster on a wheel, has been skewing my perspective. It's easy to feel like I'm labouring without doing anything important (like this, for example).

Next post: photos. The house, the wonderful wedding of Aidan and Heidi, the kids. I promise.

We're in

We moved in on Saturday!

It has been a miraculous whirlwind, and Orion and I are a bit too tired to think straight, but we're here. We have had amazing, beautiful help.  The house is still pretty chaotic, and electricians are ripping it apart to wire it up right. But we're here.

I'm itching for the setting-up phase to be over so that we can settle in to normal. See how even when whirlwind, miraculous interventions happen in my life, I'm still yearning? Seriously, Rebecca. So I need to stop, breathe, and give thanks. Give thanks! Even when I can't find the flour or a clean towel, choose to give thanks.

Each of the kids has taken their turn with a 12-hour Vomit Day in the past week, and a wee part of me has been thankful. Their sickness has forced some of the House Stuff to just quiet down take a back seat to cuddles and hugs, and I've literally needed to spend time rubbing little backs, stroking their foreheads and looking into their eyes.  It has been good for my heart. Too bad they've felt lousy.

That's about all I've got for tonight -- Orion's banging around in the basement, removing some bookcases, and I need to clear enough space to walk across the floor.

Yearning for (a) home

Hi.

We are back at Camp Ifland after a two-week house-sitting adventure in Seattle.  We are so close to closing on our house that we can almost taste it; we're signing some more papers tomorrow, and we may have keys as soon as Friday.  Almost, but not yet.  I feel so ... I don't know ... worldly and selfish for yearning for our own house so badly.  Those are ugly words, but the truth is that I am yearning to put down roots.  I am yearning to put clothes away in our own closets and dressers.  I am yearning to hide our suitcases away in storage.  I am yearning to meet neighbours and start investing in a community.  I am yearning for routine.  Sometimes I want to shout it out.  The next moment I want to clamp my hand over my mouth, silencing my sense of entitlement by giving thanks for all I *do* have.  I make a lousy nomad.  I gave some bananas and some individually-wrapped cheeses to the man who was actually homeless and asking for food outside of the grocery store last night.  I hope that this relatively plush adventure of mine can awaken in me some sense of our common homelessness -- I could be him, he could be me, and I'm not so entitled as I might think.

This world is not my home, I'm just a-passin' through...

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Out and about in Seattle: visiting The Locks (aka The Boat Elevator!) in Ballard.

Grandma

A week ago I woke up to discover that my uncle had been trying to get a hold of me since 4:00 am.  Grandma had died in her sleep.

My last visit with Grandma this summer had been a good one, and I'd cried as we left the nursing home.  A chapter was finished; we were moving away from the prairie, and moving away from a grandmother who hadn't known my name for years but who was still sad to see our time together end.  As long as I can remember, she ended our visits by gently calling out, 'Come again!'

Grandma lived an unassuming life.  She had to quit school at a young age to help at home with the farm and the growing family.  She was a very hard worker and she loved Jesus.  She was quiet but she liked to laugh; she loved to have her family gather under her roof, eating the food she had prepared.  Her life was simple.  As a girl, she was denied her desire of music lessons, but she was my first music teacher.  In the basement of the farmhouse, she taught me to play 'Jesus loves me.'  She taught me the notes and the truth.

Those summer days when Mom would bring me to the farm were good days -- they were part of a blessed, happy childhood that I realize, more and more with each passing year, I must not take for granted.  Grandma's garden seemed massive to my young eyes, and her tomatoes were second to none. I would watch her make buns in her kitchen (she even let me 'help'); to my memory, every batch came out perfectly.  She always felt her cooking was simple, but I never tired of her jam-jams or date cookies (or her mashed potatoes -- my brother can back me up on this one).  When it was time for coffee, Grandma would open the front door and call 'Yoohoo!' to summon Grandpa and Dad to the kitchen.  I loved those times; sitting around the kitchen table, learning a few Low German words (not the bad ones), watching the adults drink their coffee, eating a cookie, and hearing about the the crops and the rhythms of farming life.  I was secure in my family's love.  What they had, they gave to me: their faith, their love, their encouragement.

Now Grandma, Grandpa and Dad are buried in the cemetery next to that farmyard.  The ancient trees tower above the graves, with roots that stretch deep into the earth and branches that stretch up to the heavens.  At each of their memorial services, my eyes have been drawn to those top branches, yearning to catch a glimpse through that veil that separates us from eternity.  But I'm still here on this dirt.

When I'm gone don't cry for me
I'll be home and I'll be free
The wounds this world left on my soul
Will all be healed and I'll be whole

Sun and moon will be replaced
With the light of Jesus' face
And I will not be ashamed
For my Saviour knows my name

It don't matter where you bury me
I'll be home and I'll be free
It don't matter where I lay
All my tears be washed away

Orion and the kids and I all made the whirlwind trip back to Manitoba for the funeral this weekend.  40 hours on Manitoba soil; 40 hours that were a mosaic of difficult and good, painful and hopeful, sweet and bitter.  The reunion with family was strengthening and comforting beyond words; the kids felt almost as though they'd never left  (although Seth was quick to point out that it had been 'days and days' since he'd been to Winkler).  It was an unexpected grace, a gift of time together that soothed the soul.

One of the hymns we sang at the service was Blessed Assurance.  I sang it years ago for Grandma and Grandpa as a five-year-old, wearing a dress Grandma had crocheted for me, for their 35th anniversary celebration.

Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine
O what a foretaste of glory divine

Grandma's life was not spectacular by any worldly standards.  She lived a humble life; she kept the faith.  Hers was a life that was extraordinarly everyday, and she found purpose and dignity in her work and in her Maker.

This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long;
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long.

Blackberry Magic

*poof*

 

Saturday already

Hello dear friends.  I'm so very sorry to keep you, my half-million followers, waiting for the next episode of Extraordinarly Everyday.  Please accept my sincere apologies.

First, I give you some pictures from one of our recent outings to Indianola.  Indianola is a small town about five minutes away, with a great long pier and a rocky beach, each rock begging for an Ifland child's hand to hurl it into the water.  The Ifland children are more than willing to oblige, and so we pass our time choosing the perfect rocks, launching them through the air and waiting for the satisfying 'plunk.'

Things continue to roll along in a somewhat elliptical fashion, and while sometimes the days seem long, the truth is that the past month has held enough eventful change to last this (half-)Mennonite girl a good, long while (has it really only been a month?).  We are in the process of buying a house over in Seattle, and are thrilled with the prospects and promises it holds.  We are so thankful for the help of family during this geographic limbo, help which has made this necessarily awkward transition a little less awkward.  It is impossible to imagine how much harder this month would have been without their help (and their washing machine).  We have endured long, long hours of The Husband working late into the night (to make up for all the daytime work hours missed due to the logistics of setting up insurance and an American mortage and banking and new driver's licenses and and and...).

I am sitting next to Orion now, he in the gray rocker and me in the blue rocker, each of us with a laptop resting on our knees.  He is working; I've been looking at pictures of friends in Winnipeg.  You.  I miss you deeply.

*sigh

We're okay; just a little tired.  Orion gave me the beautiful gift of a morning in Bloedel Reserve all by myself, and it was the perfect gift.  I walked through the trees and rhododendrons, I listened, I looked, and I sat by a quiet pond and wrote a few lines of (mediocre) poetry.

dragonflies dancing over the water

the water lies still, gently shimmering with the ripples of quietly pulsing life

countless shades of green

breathtaking in the light and shadows

water reflecting the growth encircling it

light shimmering on the water reflected in translucent leaves hanging above it

it sings His glory

I am learning to worship in the everyday, with the rough stones that I have on hand, not waiting for the ever-elusive right moment.  In the midst of the uncertainty, in the midst of trying to plan another meal in a kitchen kindly stocked with utensils which are not my own, in the midst of the incessant "MOMMY MOMMY MOMMY MOMMY!," I can choose to give thanks.  I can choose to worship.

Let us remember that the life in which we ought to be interested is "daily" life.  We can, each of us, only call the present time our own....Our Lord tells us to pray for today, and so he prevents us from tormenting ourselves about tomorrow.  It is as if [God] were to say to us: "[It is I] who gives you this day [and] will also give you what you need for this day.  [It is I] who makes the sun to rise.  [It is I] who scatters the darkness of night and reveals to you the rays of the sun." 

-Gregory of Nyssa,

On the Lord's Prayer